Someone Gave Me A Black Rose

hi..everyone..i am really here to type a message for me frens...especially one girl whom i know from the start in school..her name is rebekah..lately she have been very werid like i want to talk to her she like very cool but when she feels like talking she will then talk to me..

message to rebekah..
hey gal..i know lately u have been very sad ya...i dun know why but then i know maybe is because of me..but ain't our relationship always been like this..??you are good wif naomi and march then of course me wif my frens..then i really dun know why u suddenly turn your face at me..u cannot really aspect me to like go where ever you go right?i know all this years its been my fault i know...when exams times everyone is bothering ther exams revision and you wil be the one calling me and ask me whether i am ok a not? that sweetness how can i forget..sumtimes u have done things for me and i really appreciate it but i jus dun show ya..pls understand..really i know a good fren is difficult to find..maybe your best frens is sumone else but in my heart i will always remember you as THE GAL THAT WHO WILL LAUGH WIF ME..B WIF ME AND JOKES WIF ME..we usually takes bus home together i hope this wil never change as now we are in different class but hearts are still linked together..am i the one who hurt you i really dun know but really hope that we will be as before laugh at jokes like "jie mei" like that..REMEMBER WE ARE AS ONE UNITED FAMILY..
I HOPE U WILL STILL CALL ME AND TALK TO ME..I AM ABLE TO FEEL THE LONELINESS CAN?
remember my heart is there..searching for you and if u let it go..what will happen to me..we rae frens this is a fact if there is sumthing then jus tell me..can?call me..in 21 century there is a thing called phone and is use to call people and hope that people can conmmunicate well..call me or write me a letter..pls reply..bye

message to frens.
linda.meilin,sook fung and whole bunch of people i really wan to go singing wif you all lor..can u tell me ealier when you all wan to go canuse need to plan what to sing wan mah..
super singer linda..
love your singing..your cheerfulness man..but sumtimes can dun so dao can..dun get piss off suddenly..cool man..like ya..muacks

anyway jus wanna say it is late wanna sleep...cool good night..yap

...and it died at Monday, February 28, 2005 6:43 AM

hi..i am updating my blog now...i am going to write in my blog abt my frends..two letters going to be writen...and maybe to gals called eunice and sherlyn..

to frends:
thanxs for tolerating me all the while and be there for me..sumtimes i really did not notice how for Fortunate i am.. all of you i did cherish and really want to be the frend tt u can share pain and happiness..but i dun think i had fulfill it..i am really a failure..a fren once told me tt she wanted the person to treat her the same as treated her..i find tt she really speaks out..i get what i have reap..how my fres treat me is a reflection of how i treated them..can u tell me how to be a better fren..sumtimes tt said tt i am very sensitive not to other but myself...hahah..i dun know maybe..maybei dun show how muchi care abt frens but really i tried to change so..anyone who sees this entry can tell me how u feel me..???tell me wat i can change..(maybe sum frens will think all this is bull shit..i am serious)lots of love..

to eunice:
its a great pleasure to go to your house and i had fun..eunice do u have sumthing against me(ok..not really against me but jus like my habits u dun like)....not saying wat but i jus wan to know how u feel abt me..really i need to know..maybe only maybe dun get mad: i am not the person u like or your best fren but as a normal fren can u tell me wats wrong like sumtimes i talk to u, u did not wan to talk to me like tt..i hate that kind of feeling..being a lone.. everyone knows i hate to be left out..i know u will feel irritated when i say i cannot wan la..but in the end the outcome is good...i will try to change ok??i felt left out when u all always go out together but as a fren for so long i did not go out wif u onces..not even one time..
i treat u as my good fren a fren who can laugh wif me and do funny stuff wif me...a gal who likes to take photos wif frens...
*pls believe...nothing is against u..we are still frens u can write in your blog or write me a letter to tell me things like things that u wan me to change*i love u..as a fren
=my soul will be wif u.. call me and i will be there=

to sherlyn:
i am very sorry that i cannot be the one that know how u feel even though u are sad..really i dun say it out but i know sumthing in your heart is making u sad..i feel..i cannot tell wat but there is sumthing..i am very thankful for the message u wrote on your blog..
thanx..very much..pain is always before beauty..i know..wat u have done for me i know..i may not say it out but really i do cherish it..upon hearing u thinks tt singapore is a sad place i think partly becoz of me..or us,frens..pls dun leave la..i know we still can communicate but it will be soo far..haha..
hope u heal by time..god will always be wif u..me too..remember..
=my body will rot,decompose...but u know wat my soul is everlasting and it will be with u..iwill stand beside u

this all..for todae..ppl..thanx..
lord bless me pls..i need u..u are the strength i need..

...and it died at Friday, February 18, 2005 11:32 PM

hi..evrybody..my face is getting better now but my heart aches..i am really sad..bacoz of sumthing that i cannot say..jy am i your good fren or jus a fren that is normal..then why ? i really felt left out when u talk to eunice..and another thing is i falied my social studies ...that is the worse man..i never thought that i would fail my test..especially s.s..wat cao..i am very sad very this lor..can anyone tell me wat i have done wrong a not..tomoro i am having chinese paper back and goin to have bio test...i really hope i can be the one...i mean passwif good marks..i am scared.soo anyway..i love this song called salsa..is by mark anthony and jlo...i heard this song yesterdae and i sort of remember this song...is quite an old song..nice i love it...

...and it died at Saturday, February 12, 2005 7:31 PM

hi jus wanna say happi new year..(lunar one la)yeas..nowadaes my face sucks i dun wan to talk abt if u saw me dun ever ask me again i am sick of it...jus wanna say it will be ok..jus give me time ...let time heal everything i really hate myself now...did such a thing to my face..wat de...kao..nevermind..i shall be fine.todae is the renuion dae..hahaha..really wish that it will be a fine dae..doin my work half way sick liao stop now..this new year really means nothing to me becoz no spirit one..sian wishing next year will be ok...
i love a song since u have been gone...
nice song i am posting the lyrics bye..stop here..pray for my face..
thanx..lord help me ...i wish..this is the biggest wish in new year..Here’s the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
You dedicated, you took the time
Wasn’t long till I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you’d ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That’s all you’d ever hear me say

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I’m so movin’ on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone

How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
How come I’d never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
Guess you never felt that way

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I’m so movin’ on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want (I get what I want)
Since you been gone

You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can’t take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you been gone (since you been gone)
I can breathe for the first time
I’m so movin’ on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get, I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I’m so movin’ on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know) that I get
I get what I want

Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Since you been gone
lord i really wish u will help me pls...really wish..

...and it died at Monday, February 07, 2005 6:42 PM