i did not blog for really a very long time, maybe is becoz no time or i am too lazy..but i think the real reason that i did not blog is becoz too much emotions and it is hard to blog it down..now is 11.58Pm and i am still awake not feeling sleepy but my heart is exhausted..i often cry , cry till eyes is dry and heart is so empty that sometimes i think that why am i here in this world when i am soo empty inside..i have loss the meaning of life..things had happened and i dun know how to react to it..the only thing that i can do is keep silence.is this fair to me? knowing what is the fact but no one believes in me..i hate the feeling..i think the most scarest thing is death but is emptiness and lonliness..and i have both of them..which makes me feel very scared, at times i go to clubs.. and i dun know why i would go there? wat is my purpose of going there besides dancing..(i dun drink)?my bro once said that ppl in club wants to get attention and i realised that that was a fact..and maybe i am one of them..this year compared to last year i was soo lost and i am scared that this will affect my Os..but nonetheless i will try my best..i will put in sweat and blood..
i must do myself proud
pipi..peace out